Illusions 2

It's been a while. Transitioning takes place in different states.

Orbiting the centrifugal while acknowledging the invitation fear held to be understood and met. Such journeys are intense and life changing. Underneath the makeup of programming is the nakedness. The unprotected. The rawness. The Truth of oneself.

A yearning to return. To merge with source. Let go. Leave. It is the most beautiful thing.

In the centripetal force of life there's still a pull. The gravitational energetics. Small pleasures still to behold. To contribute. But the taste of life has changed. At first it felt like depression. A numbness. Indifference.

I thought I had lost the love of my life, but every time I looked in the Mirror, I saw myself smiling back at me. Knowing no damage had been done, but immense healing and kindness taking place.

But I thought, that the death that had kissed me had permanently marked me.

Time ceased to be existing. Living in a now that holds all time, memories play out within me as if happening to be resolved, neutralized, looked at from the awarenesses of all the people one has become. Not just older and wiser. But released from Life while still here.

A Seer-ess wrote a sentence upon my horizon some 23 years ago. A truthful prediction to embrace and merge with as time unfolded upon my path. That the merging of Heaven and Earth would be my primary purpose.

On the other side looking back at the life illusions we are fed for breakfast upon birthing it feels timely to remember those words.

I walk naked in this world, without makeup. Death kissed me to wake me up from the dream I was temporarily stuck in. I understood that death is the release, not the Dark.

Life is not what I thought. It is a very happy and joyful insight. Now I can live. I am free. I am more alive than I have ever been.

Joy is a forceful steady calm river that flows within. Indifference is the Wisdom. Joy is that calm.